ashes

I hate how these neurons fire in my head

All this electricity that divides you and me

To leave or hold on?

All this electricity that brings us to this point

Unspoken yet felt

All this electricity that makes me glow

Do you ever wonder is it me shining or burning to ashes?

you~

Love is watching someone die
So whose gonna watch you die?

What Sarah said~

sandpaper

There are sounds in your head
And little voices telling you all
But you never pay attention
You never stop to listen
You run and run
Human race.

And at some point it all turns to ashes
You don't mean anything neither do I


This damn itch.


sometimes I really miss you.

I like to see people reunited, I like to see people run to each other, I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can't tell fast enough, the ears that aren't big enough, the eyes that can't take in all of the change, I like the bringing together, the hugging, the end of missing someone. Jonathan Safran Foer ~

possessing your secrets

There might be days when I can go on without you and sound like a girl who never heard of broken hearts and happily never afters, yet on others she wants it all back and wants her
forevers to last.

The last song which echoes

There are things in my head which I am not sure words exist to explain or I simply have lost the way of explaining. It's not easy being the glue. Funny? Yea it is.

Oh I am stupid too.

LOL :P

The way we get by

Four years :) ♥
until june - You do
♫

If only I could see the way you do~

There are moments in life when we move ahead of what we actually are.

sprinkles of hope tainted with uncertain love.
We all move on

Remission

Something happened to my account and I was unable to access. Anyways I am back with a blank mind yet an urge to pour out everything out, let's see how it goes..

leap

So here I am trying to grip on the writing once I loved to do. I am going through such a weird phase of my life and its funny because it doesn't feel like that I am living my own life. It is quite good believe me it is quite better than what it was but you know that darkest black fear sits in the corner of your heart and comes out in the silent moments when no one notices and lurks around me,sneering telling me I can't possibly make a safe escape from this life. Dread , anticipation it sits right next to me all the time. I need to do a lot of things and I am working on this part. I want to jump ten years from now and see what's there in store for me whether I am even here or not.

Pipeline

You know when you keep running and running spinning in circles. Its been too long for me now, more like this is what I have actually become. In the long run I have given up a lot and side by side learned hell of new things. I have learned how it feels to have your heart filled with so much peace that it is hard for you to believe whether you are living a dream or a reality. But then reality hits you telling like a chronic illness that I am still here you can take a break to have a breath but I am still here. I close my eyes lay down and try to stop all the thoughts and live in the moment I guess if you keep on doing this you become a pro at it..Is it the right way to live your life? I used to be realistic but then that did make me sad a lot more often..Is it going to hit really hard when I wake up? How do you give up so easily when you could have it? Is the right always wrong or the wrong seems right? Heart has its on alibis and its own words which no one can understand.I have screwed many things which I might not ever be able to fix but were they meant to be fixed? Was it worth it? I might have let things pass unheard I might have things which needed my emotion to put into it but still the question remains. Maybe that's how we humans are made,full of questions. Always short on answers. anyways.

decide

requirement

I want two pairs of nice sandals
I want clutchers
I want an ipod
I want somebody who is ok with my emotions and loves me madly
I want a gulab jaman
I want to run very fast on an empty wet road
I want to quit everything and lie in my bed forever
I want to runaway even if everyone thinks I am a coward