Scar

When you are cut you wait for the wound to heal. The pink gash and then it turns to brown. Later it itches and sometimes you want to peal of the new cover of skin that has formed to fill in the broken part. I itch beneath this new patch of mine. I want to sit and think through all the pain I have been denying and burying it beneath the covers. Maybe that way I might feel they way I want to and stop this restless heart of mine from hurting my ribs.

Complicate

Listening to stupid songs
Laughing at nothing-meant-to-be-laughed-at
eating sugar to get high
it all works for sometime. Some time.

Tangle

When we were young it was lot easier. Nothing had to have a reason and logic tagged to it. Things get a lot more complicated as we grow old and a whole new level of thoughts and emotions to deal with and to make peace with. Sometimes taking a single day and living it is easy but not always you need something to hold onto. I bet it is not easy it is not at all easy.

I don't know your thoughts these days
we are strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
Its easier to be apart
We might as well be strangers-Keane

Taste

Stories of time
untold
Words held on the tongue
Sweet like honey
twinkling like shades of amber
but with an aftertaste of bitterness

Ice

Everything breaks.
Glass breaks.
Ice breaks.
Sun Breaks.
Everything breaks.

Heart breaks.

Bad is to look at what you had and what you have.

Worst is that you are indifferent.

My Heart has got its own mind.

This is the hole from where your soul comes ripping out.
Born.
The heart caving in.
This is not that you never expected deep down inside you knew it through and through beneath the layers of lies defying what stays right in front of you rubbed in your face.hah.
Robotic acts.
Incoherent words.
Mumbled up exclaims.
Indifference is key to happiness yea totally right.
You think well whatever it doesn't matter what is being thought.
Back in. Bouncing. Nothing it is.
Cold nights chill down the spine.
Well this is a new day shining right through stabbing in my eyes.
Its a new day. : )

Hey people. I have been insanely busy in exams and have been gone for a month. I came back but I am going again so I don't have the idea how long I wont be posting. I miss writing.

Give me back my feelings.
Even if they were a pile of hurt with pain dripping down on its side and scattered fears near it.
I want it all back.
Its better to feel something than nothing at all.
Let me believe I am still alive.
Let me be certain or at least pretty sure enough.

~Possibility

So tell me when you hear my heart stop,
You’re the only who knows
Tell me when you hear my silence
There’s a possibility
I wouldn’t know

Tell me when my sigh is over
You’re the reason why I’m close
Tell me when you hear me falling
There's a possibility
It wouldn’t show

Possibility-lykke li

Tagged by Siras

Rules:
Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. If I tagged you, its because I want to know more about you.

I was tagged by siras :)

this is a tough one God twenty-five facts lets see if i can come up with em!


1.I need to multitask all the time to keep my mind at rest.I text,chat,watch movie,read,listen to songs,eat all at the same time.

2.I hate people who smell bad.

3.The first thing I notice about anyone is their shoes and feet.

4.I try to avoid eye contact while making conversations they make me uncomfortable.

5.I play with my hair while I am studying.

6.I hate summers and rains. Sometimes i like rain but depends on my mood.

7.I have got an eccentric choice of music from old indian songs to trance. I can like anything and nothing at the same time.

8.I love to talk to myself and for few moments I do before going to bed and go through the whole day in my head.

9.I don't like to spend apart from on shoes and books it gives me guilt pangs otherwise.

10.Coldplay-trouble and Snow Patrol-run have been my most most favourite songs.

11.Grey's anatomy is not a show it is life for me.

12.I like to be around people and listen to them,people-watching is my favorite pass-time.

13.I aint a sporty person.

14.My most favorite book is "million little pieces"

15.The movie I like the most is "The pianist"

16.More than anything I love getting handmade gifts and love giving em too.

17.I am scared of almost all kinds of rides rollercoasters etc are not my thing.

18.I don't really like icecreams.

19.I wish to learn few more languages in my life.

20.Paintings are good but I like to work in black and white. These two colors hold more meaning to me than any other color.

21.If I get a chance I would like to make a pyschiatric organisation for women,children and adolescents in my region.

22.I like the person I am with others but I wish I treated myself better.

23.I don't like to sleep it seems wastage of time to me.

24.I can choose to be very strong or extremely sensitive I change.

25.Lastly, I hate to talk about myself..this was hard tag:S

I also tag everyone who is there in my blogroll.

Award :)

It would be infact my first award :) thankyou so much Sunakshi
Thank whoever gave this to you
2. Copy award
3. Post it in your blog
4. Tell us 7 things that your readers don’t know
5. Link 7 new bloggers
6. Notify winners of the award with a comment on their blog
7. Most of all - Keep being awesome!

Seven things about me:
1.I love black and blue colour
2.I hate lizards
3.I am pathetic at singing and dancing
4.I am a perfectionist so i don't even try things which I might think i am not good at
5.I treat myself with chocolates when I am down :$
6.I love getting foot massages
7.I hate summers

I pass this award to
Raaji
Kadri Luik
Marina
The Ragpicker
siras
KAY
Ubaid Ullah Ahmed

Fades....

ice

Louder than you can hear
silence that haunts the soul
slaves of blackness that entwines minds
fine threads
fragile thoughts
icy presence
hard and dry
to the core
carved out of stone
wearing out
empty filled with hollow

glistening droplets

silhouettes made of smoke

Liar

words become meaningless once they remain unsaid

emotions change to scars

locked up hearts

blocked minds

hollow

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Person I am

picture by:KAY

p.s I apologize for my blog being so dead. Blame the Prof exams.I'll be back by end of October.