Tuesday, March 31, 2009

heartburn

rest in pieces-saliva

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine. you look so beautiful tonight
Remind me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
Im in your reach
You held me in your hands
But could you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces

Sunday, March 29, 2009

To hold you safe in my embrace

The time may change
Even if it all looks beyond the reality
but I will make it true for you
always and forever
for you

Friday, March 27, 2009

Ten thousand sorrows

Ten thousand sorrows by Elizabeth kim.Very touching book..

ten thousand joys and ten thousand sorrows, and all of them are stepping-stones to ultimate peace


Poem by the daughter to her mother who was murdered in the name of honor in the novel.

To Omma

I kiss your face a thousand times
Again,again again.
I close your eyelids,smooth your hair
And fold your gentle hands.
Butterfly wings that beat
Against the domed ceiling of this life
Flutter free now in the open air.
And I will whisper this truth
Into the viewless winds:
I love you.I love you.I love you.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Like the dark burning acid running under my skin..
I can't tell how
I can't count the seconds
or look at the perfection
black is black it can never change to white..
Born to be tainted

razor please

Sunday, March 22, 2009

5'10 Germ posted by Bushra Akram lyrics by Meredith brooks(i can relate to it freakingly so much)

I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
You must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean
You'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way

dirt

Tainted
She has the smudged fingers
Ashes on her eyes
stains on her garb
dirt in her hair

hate
~

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

The man who can't be moved

A devil..
Split..can't breathe
kills to be what you are..
Regret
remorse
guilt
apologys
same old sorrys..stranger in her
torn

Monday, March 16, 2009

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

drifting

she is feeling it coming back..
sick again craving
bring out the blood


lifehouse-Something in between
I cant be losing sleep over this, no I cant
And now I can not stop pacing
Give me a few hours, Ill have all this sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing

Cause I cannot stand still
I cant be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening

This is over my head but underneath my feet
Cuz by tomorrow morning Ill have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy

Cuz Im waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And Im somewhere in between
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream

Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in
Dont be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again
I dont want to run away from this
I know that I just dont need this

Cause I cannot stand still
I cant be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening

Cuz Im waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And Im somewhere in between
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream

Friday, March 6, 2009

Like pieces of glass
piercing you from all sides

but you are told not to bleed..

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

acceptance

Everybody's saying
Everything is alright
but I still can't close my eyes
why I see tunnel at the end
of all these lights
why does it always rain on me-Travis

Monday, March 2, 2009

Take me away by Lifehouse

This time, what I want is you
There is no one else, who can take your place
This time, you burn me with your eyes
You see past all the lies
You take it all away
I've seen it all and it's never enough, it keeps leaving me needing you
Take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away
I try, to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all, it was never enough, it keeps leaving me needing you
Take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away
Don't give up on me yet, don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet, but don't let me stay here alone
This time, what I want is you
There is no one else, who can take your place
I've seen enough and it's never enough it keeps leaving me needing you
Take me away, take me away
I've got nothing left to say, just take me away
Take me away, take me away I've got nothing left to say, just take me away

Sunday, March 1, 2009

I want a hug

dark grey loops

I always said that I would make mistakes,
I'm only human, and that’s my saving grace,
I fall as hard as I try
So don't be blinded
See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin,
so pull me from that pedestal,
I don't belong there.

Halo-Haley James Scott

I am done with the stage. It was ok i guess waiting for the result.Presentation bhe hogai got highest in it.Now physio and biochem test. Lower limb will be started this monday it is much more complicated and ugh the dissection I hate to remove the skin that's the toughest part it gets so stiff! by the way our fungus-wali keere pari body will be replaced and we will get a fresh one :D I hope its recent one would be quite easier to dissect it! ok i think I might be creeping out people :P and what else yes re-allotment going to start too! I am going to get a room on ground floor now but I am scared of the niolas they come into the rooms on the ground floor...Have to get the bed and also paint the room with some good colors a nice carpet and curtains. Class function coming too I won't go :P its useless and totally crap so I will come back home :D han I guess bus yehi hai updates and yea!! I got my nose pierced :P and got my diamond too :D