Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Friday, December 12, 2008
Just a voice inside your head
Whispering all the hope is dead
All the time you had to prove
That no one really loves you
I found you in a reflection
You didn't want me to see
I will give you all i have
Just look up, break down and believe
This is a glass parade
A fragile state
And i am not trying to break
And the stars are shining
The moon is right
And i would kill to be with you tonight
Wish you told me all the truth
So afraid to face an absolute
All the fights you had to lose
All the fear was put upon you
I found you when you were broken
Too many cracks of deceit
I will give you all i have
Just look up, break down and believe
This is the feeling, falling
So much i want to say
Show me the same emotion
Show me what's at stake
How much can you take
When you realise your fate?
Hold me now as the car lights fade
And we are dancing in the glass parade
It's just a voice inside your head
your smile is so pure just by looking at it my soul gets washed and renewed... :) I wonder what I would have been without..maybe a hollow being without any soul...you make life run through my being :) it's you who makes me alive...
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
Rules: IT'S HARDER THAN IT LOOKS!
TAG 10 PEOPLE INCLUDING THE ONE THAT SENT THIS TO YOU.
- USE THE 1ST LETTER OF YOUR NAME TO ANSWER EACH OF THE FOLLOWING QUESTIONS.
- THEY HAVE TO BE REAL PLACES, NAMES,THINGS. NOTHING MADE UP!
- TRY TO USE DIFFERENT ANSWERS IF THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU HAD THE SAME 1ST INITIAL.
- YOU CAN'T USE YOUR NAME FOR THE BOY/GIRL NAME QUESTION.
1. What is your name: Aliza
2. A 4 Letter word: ages
3. A Boys Name: Ali
4. A Girls Name: Aina
5. An Occupation: Artist
6. A Color: Azure
7. Something you wear: anklet
8. A Beverage: apple juice
9. A Food: Aloo ke parathe
10. Something found in the bathroom: acne soup
11. A place: Ahmadabad
12. A Reason for being late: Accident
13. Something you shout:Aqsaaaaa ( my maid's name)
The hardest part is finding 10 people that will play with you!!!
Ilu you can do it too!
seher you have already done it hehe :)
Saturday, December 6, 2008
good luck joes-frozen
What was deemed to never change,
Found a rift,
Made a void at its own pace.
In a blindside ambush fight,
It all fell
At the hands
Of a mind game.
And i don't mind,
And i don't mind
To look inside your thoughts..
And i don't mind,
And i don't mind,
But i can't find my way in…
Frozen in time,
And only you and i can see the
Through thousands upon
Thousands of honest lines,
Dry your eyes…
Black and white's
Not always simple
As it seems.
But i will try
To make it easy
And i will, and i will,
And i will set you free
Friday, December 5, 2008
talking about college it is the worst place ever to exist on this world! very vulgar fooling crappy narrow minded conservative teachers awful seniors! in short this place is more like hell for me!
the teachers here think the girl wearing a veil is very pak and muslim and while who isn't is some prostitute and should be punished in every way possible! But I am dheet for them I will never change my personality if they think I am a prostitute let them think that way I give a fucking damn about your shallow minds!
The hold of jamiat-islami is so much here! thanks GoD I am in Iqbal Hall in Faisal Hall the jamiat girls don't allow tv and anybody who is listening to music they go to their room and fight over it and call them kafir! We had a so-called tiny little primary class standard welcome "party"(shame to call it a party) in hostel. I didn't go but what I heard made me do shukar that I didn't go.There was no music no entertainment the jamiat ppl gave DARSSS!!! and that's all this was the welcome thng!
every single girl here is crying and complaining about it. In college the favouritism rules! A girl daughter of a professor working at qmc gets the highest marks teachers take her viva for 30 mins and wehereas mine not even 10 minutes my demonstrator has no intention to pass me! She asked me the questions she hadn't asked anybody all the twisted ones and tried to confuse me a lot asking me at my every answer " are you sure? really?" I hate her.
The whole anatomy department is the department of mentally sick people! the maam calls us "loofar" "awaara" "third-class girls" and the college thinks that this maam has got some kind of mental problem cuz she calls this type of things to our seniors final year girls too!. and khud she is wearing almost sleeveless stuff no dupatta frills and weird clothes!
she is the maam of girls batch but she goes to help the boys batch and does dissection herself for them but to us she gives the order "skin remove krlo" "fat nikal dou" "aapko tou kuch nahi ata" I am like hum tou apne ghar se seekh ke ate hai na dissection!! I hate this maam too!!
Biochem and physio departments are much better the teachers there don't pass fail you on the basis of your links and appearance!
and the computer lab at our college is always locked!
I think that's enought to explain the hell shitty place I am living in!
I will never advice anybody to ever go qmc this place sucks!!
Thursday, December 4, 2008
the few updates are that I am very sick
I cleared my sub-stage with good marks! viva tha
We did dissection and now the bodies have fungus and things are very disgusting with yellow liquid flowing out of the bodies and green fungus
anatomy department paglo ka department hai teachers there are clinically insane!
and environment of qmc sucks!!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Without a key, without a clue
Without you, i am wondering...
Wondering about you.
It's a cold cold night
Are you gonna call me
Tell me about.. how i go on and on.. about you
Being how it used to be.
How it's all about me.
Ooohh i would like to know
Who is the wounded one
Which one will make the move
Which one is willing to lose
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Some very vulgar fooling was done about which I complained to the administration and thus guards are appointed now in every corridor! and we are being fooled in episodes and it will continue for a month or more than that because when fourth year got free from exams they fooled us when third year will get free in a week then they will fool us and 2nd year coming on 1st december :P.
Life has gotten really busy 8am-2:30pm we study CONTINUOUSLY without and break to eat or drink and back at the hostel there is so much to study!
the guys here they are getting fooled TOO MUCH lol
khyr bus yehi hain updates I think.
So far away from where you are
I'm standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here
I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here
lifehouse-from where you are
I really miss you timsal
Saturday, November 15, 2008
lol I love this site asma they are so damn cute thanks for telling me
My first day went quite fine without any ragging the teachers are so strict here they don't allow it. Got my room almost set with carpets it will get completed on Monday. Nothing special really happened to be shared. Just that studies here seem to be quite tough! and we had to give our attendance 10 times because they had nothing else to keep us occupied and ya the boys aren't allowed to wear joggers jeans and t-shirts with stuff written on it. One of them got beztified toolol and we girls are not allowed to wear open shoes! Bus these were the weird stuff.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
I am going on saturday. My pc will be at home for a week until I get a computer table that fits in my miniature room and I can't risk taking the laptop because of the stealing scene there. And yes the seniors are well prepared for our fooling yesterday two girls tried to trap me and my friend while we were looking at the rooms but thanks to the supervisor with us they left us! but bakre ki maa kab tak khair manae gi lol phasna tou hai! I hope it's good and funny I will come and share it here what happened with me. Last year my friend's sister and their classfellows made a newcomer wear socks on his ears and run round and round in the ground doing *mae mae mae mae* and with the other guy they asked him to shout and run all around in the university calling * meri paro meri paro* lols
and yes I am getting scholarshipI will buy my cell with it hehe
any tips for living in hostel are most welcome! I really need them!
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Soon I am going to get one waitng for abu to get free and I attend my first class at uni then I am going to get it
It's going to my bday gift+AS level result+A level result+ entry test result
Friday, November 7, 2008
The McCains own 13 cars, eight homes and have access to a corporate jet. If you were as insanely rich as them, where would your eight homes be and why?
The only rule is: The homes must be within the borders of the country you live in, so as to utterly emulate the McCains.
When you’re done, tag 8 people, so that they may join in the self-indulgence, forgetting about the crappy property market and the equivalent of The End of Pompeii on Wall-Street. You could spend your time hammering your doors and windows shut in preparation for the Apocalypse, but this meme is so much more fun!
I can't think of 8 places lets see how many I can come up with
1st.I want two houses in the northern areas of pakistan, one near kashmir area and the second a little lower than that can be at murree or nathiagali.
2nd. I want a house near the desert too an area like this..
3rd.There is a hill near the hanna lake in quetta of shia community it is quite beautiful I want a home there. I couldn't get the picture of the hill but here is the picture of that lake.
4th. Of course near the sea side is a must :)
5th. a house on any lake in pakistan.
6th. a modern house in any defence area :p lahore maybe I think it's safer.
7th. A small comfortable home in a village too any beautiful village would be great. :)
8th. And finally yes a house in bhawalpur because I have to study there :p lol
yay I actually came up with 8 place. :D
I am not tagging anyone :P anybody who reads this tag is welcome to do it hehe *rola muka* :P
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
[copied and pasted!]
~ Link to the Blogger who tagged you.
~ In your blog, post The Rules and...
~ Six quirky but unspectacular factoids about yourself
~ Tag six other bloggers by linking to them
~ Go to each person's blog, and leave a comment that lets them know they've been tagged.
My own rule~ Let me know you've done this tagged post too!
I am being tagged by hfm
1st.I have this strong urges while I am at some very formal place like in front of principal or any senior personality to shout and do something totally rebellious like jumping asking them a very stupid question or just running away real fast while we are in the middle of conversation. :$
2nd.Again an urge--while we are traveling in car I have this desire to open the door of running car and jump out of it :P
3rd.Before going to sleep all night I shake my left leg real hard it kinda helps me in my thought process.
4th.Even though I have never studied computer not even at my school( ya it was a bad low standard school) I can understand this htmls and computer progamming much better than many people.
5th.When I start sketching I have to complete that sketch on the spot.If I leave it I can never complete it NEVER!! even if try at some other day I can't even hold the pencil right for doing so.
6th.I CAN'T sing or dance in front of any person not that I have a "torture to ears" kind of voice but singing and dancing is just TOO embarrassing for me.
I tag Timsal,Aina,illusions,BoogieMonsterman,Sawj and Noor Ali
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Sunday, October 26, 2008
d gypsy! :)
"…and I wish I can tell you and make you understand that success is never an easy affair. Not always a fair decision would happen, not always it would be in your stride, not always there would be a failure to make you understand that things shouldn’t be like that!
But there would be chances and there would be hopes, there would be reasons to live on and there would be people to love.
When "supermen" are a distant dream, being a "human" is all it takes! "
Friday, October 24, 2008
I am a paranoid lunatic emotional bitch.
I wish I die or I never existed.
I had enough of this life.
Ya Ya life a gift blah blah
I don't have the
reason to move on and just live.
it hurts to breathe
I feel very alone
I am not your star or angel.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
days weeks words cuts
your ruling habits
my seething anger
ok fine you rule the world but I am telling you I am not a part of that world
my time will come soon
He has a better plan for me than you think
red white lies
ps.all the commentors I DON'T want any lecture over happiness!
Monday, October 20, 2008
at last I found it and it was funny yet painful reading it..well I have found this old post of mine which I would like to share
I don't know who wrote it
aKhlaaq na bartenge mudaawaa na karenge
ab hAm kisi shaKhs ki paravaah na karenge
kuch log kaii lafz galat bol rahe hain
isalaah magar ham bhi ab isalaah na karenge
kam-goii k ek vasf-e-himaaqat hai bahar toU
kam-goii ko apanaayenge chahakaa na karenge
ab sahal pasandi ko banaayenge vatiiraa
taa der kisi baab meIn sochaa na karenge
Gussaa bhi hai tahaziib-e-ta'lluq ka talabgaar
ham chhup hain bahre baiYhe hain Gussaa na karenge
kal raat bahut ghuur kiyaa hai so ham
tay kar ke uthe hain k tamannaa na karenge
Sunday, October 19, 2008
this is for you! I think you will get what I wanted to say to you read it calmly understanding the words!
Your words, your dreams, and your thoughts have the
power to create conditions in your life
What you speak about, you can bring about.
If you keep saying you can’t stand your job,
you might lose your job.
If you keep saying you can’t stand your body,
your body can become sick.
If you keep saying you can’t stand your car,
your car could be stolen or just stop operating.
If you keep saying you’re always broke, guess what?
You’ll always be broke.
If you keep saying you can’t trust a man or trust a woman,
you will always find someone in your life to hurt and betray you.
If you keep saying you can’t find a job,
you will remain unemployed.
If you keep saying you can’t find someone
to love you or believe in you,
our very thoughts will attract more
experiences to confirm your beliefs.
Turn your thoughts and conversations around to be more positive
and power packed with faith, hope, love and action
Don’t be afraid to believe that you can
have what you want and deserve.
Watch your ‘Thoughts,’
they become words;
Watch your ‘Words,’
they become actions;
Watch your ‘Actions,’
they become habits;
Watch your ‘Habits,’
they become character;
Watch your ‘Character’,
for it becomes your ‘Destiny’
So…….To prevent any obstacles…….
GET OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY!
Enjoy every minute you live!!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
maybe you can someday understand it..
Thinking of you so much borders on 'not acceptable'.
I dreamt of you last night.
I woke up to see your name flash up on my cellphone and I smiled.
There is too much pain in you for me to let it go by unnoticed. If I could look into your eyes, I would see the possibility of the warmth and innocence you would have embodied, if you hadn't been hurt like this. If I could watch you, I would see buried flashes of it when you speak to the elderly, hold babies, feel the pain of the ill.
Since you're not here, I'll search for you in the faces of people I see.
True eyes and glorious smile.
If I promise you not to hurt you, you won't believe it and I might not be able to keep it. But I can promise you I'll try my damned hardest.
Never forget you're beautiful. Not a failure, not what people say you are, not what you see in the mirror. Just plain ol' beautiful. Inside and out, through and through.
Friday, October 10, 2008
1st-my cellphone I am kind of person who msgs all day and can't sleep properly if my cell is not right near my pillow..though I am changing it but for right now k790i is my life :P
2nd-my sketch ka saman :)
3rd-my cats they are like my family from top left-shonu,bilo rani aka brownie, monu and bibal :)
ps.Aina as you might argue why I dint mention you so the reason is you come above all of them and I can't compare you with cats or cell phone :P
I tag timsal and aina :)