Saturday, June 23, 2007

The whole world seems like crashing on you....breathing gets difficult...standing at the edge looking at your life fall apart in front of you and You are just as helpless as you can ever be...things dear to you being taken away...sadness turning into fury...fury eating your own flesh...desire to burn....sadness sadness sadness....numb numb numb....tears.....desire desire fucking desire...blank...duality two persons....real....confusion....fallbacks.....people changing...expectations....failure....illusions....flashbacks...past is present....shadows covering the future....fucking want you to shut up!!!!
fears.....fucking scary fears FEARS!!!!!!
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and You can blame me for everything I have got no excuses no explanations
and I can be as invisible as you have always made me feel
I just wish nobody goes through this emotion
this emotion I had always been telling
to see everything happening right in front of your eyes
and standing there
blank eyes
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You may not get it
what I am trying to say
but
this feeling
this fucking feeling
once you imagine my pain
you wont be able to look into my eyes and question about my acts

2 comments:

silent screams said...

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abt the post, i dnt kno wt to say...we have talked abt this several times...and evry talk ends with a hug...
i guess tats wat u call being helpless rite??...

Timsal said...

I have neever had my heart race as fast as this while reading ur posts.......
and Im just speechless
Hope it gets better even sounds soo fake...and false!!!!!!

I get these lyrix in my head wen i read this post.....

"There's nothign u can say, there's nothing u can do, there's no other way wen it comes to the truth"

But just remember yara....
Im right here by ur side...never feel bad abt anything....and u cna always talk to me!
LUv u kiddo!:D