for you

Snow Patrol-open your eyes

All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you
My bones ache my skin feels cold
And I'm getting so tired and so old
The anger swells in my guts
And I won't feel these slices and cuts
I want so much to open your eyes
Cause I need you to look into mine

Tell me that you'll open your eyes
Tell me that you'll open your eyes
Tell me that you'll open your eyes
Tell me that you'll open your eyes

Get up get out get away from these liars
Cause they don't get your soul and your fire
Take my hand knot your fingers trough mine
And we'll walk from this dark room for the last time
Every minute from this minute now
We can do what we like anywhere
I want so much to open your eyes
Cause I need you to look into mine

Tell me that you'll open your eyes
Tell me that you'll open your eyes
Tell me that you'll open your eyes

All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you

this goes for you
I might not be good at my own words
just wanted you to know
people will always give tags will make you feel like shit and will point out everything wrong that they can think of in you
all I want you is to believe
just believe in me and I promise I am going to make it ok

A passage from "My friend Leonard"-James Frey

I believe that pain and suffering are different things.Pain is a feeling.Suffering is the effect that pain inflicts.If one can endure pain,one can live without suffering.If one can learn to withstand pain,one can withstand anything.If one can learn to control pain,one can learn to control oneself.I have lived a life without control.I have spent twenty-three years destroying myself and everything and everyone around me and I don't want to live that way anymore.I take the pain so that I will never suffer.I take the pain to experience control.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY timsal =)

may this year brings loads of happiness and success for you and you get many years full of joy ahead =)

keep smiling and keep rocking n keep talking hehe :P

and one day you are going to be sorry for it
but I am also sure of one thing that the sorry will be for your own self you will never realise what you did to me...
victimise me
hurt me
bruise me
break me
bend me
tear me apart
but inspite of this all you cannot turn me into what you are
you can't even possibly reach to my soul

=)

there has been times when you have felt weak

and days when you thought you are nothing but a failure

accusing yourself for every other bad thing you can think of

feeling like you were never good enough and falling apart completely

but give me the chance to tell you about an angel in you

always perfect and always justified

mesmerizing in your own ways

making me wonder and just wonder what did I do to deserve you

for me you are my saviour my only saviour

thanking God always for your presence

praying to share my every second of life with you

and I am here to stitch all your wounds

giving you the promise I will never give up :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

may we get old together when you loose your bateesi and we are celebrating your silver golden jubilees I am around you always and forever..hehe...love you bandi loads and loads of prayers and best wishes!! =) =)

*hugs*

*muahs*

I think now my blog need an update:P
muharram might be starting from tomorrow or day after tomorrow and I will get extra busy because of the studies and majlis wagera tou its best to write something today when I am kinda free,still have got lots of notes piled up and lots of readings to do together with a tough week all crammed up with tests and more studying!
So today as every day we did all the madness at school and people will surely be doubting our mental condition:P

from giving juice to the flowers,running after each other and hiding bags,taking stupid pics while climbing up on window sheds and doing cyling on bikes of our juniors,laughing our assoff and stealing french fries from canteen and being called by the canteen wale uncle "baki log tou qabr mein jaein ge tum gutter mein jao gi"(xaineb being entitled to this:p) to scribbling during the lectures and poking each other school seems to be fun nowadays.
Thats just cuz while I dont really take part in the "activities" of my friends I just enjoy all their bongis and dont feel bad for myself and my life which kind of lack loads of stuff
Maybe I am now tired of feeling pity for myself..let the things be as they are
I cant control anything what goes around...and surely there is no other way to adjust then to accept things as they are instead of having pity and thinking how it could have been..
yes its true I get restless
I lose my temper
I get sad
but at the end of the day nothing really helps in coping up with stuff
I have always believed "let the emotions flow"
but nowadays that seems more nerve-breaking to me...so its just better to keep your mouth shut ignore the stuff,stay busy and move along with the life
I no more want to complain that I am floating cuz from now I realise that for quite a long time I would be doing the same so why make it so bothersome for myself.
thats it i guess..

=)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

2007 had been quite wonderful for me and I am going to cherish its memories my whole life!

I dont want to go on and on and losing the essence of 2007 in words

new year resolution:except for one quite personal resolution none

just praying that in next year there is less bloodshed in my country and we gain the peace back