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aik tou meri moti ko kuch samjhana ho.....
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meri khoti!!!
she wud hav eaten herself!!! n then the cute hmmmm han.....yeh tou hai.... :P
n ur presence makes those lectures come out kissi aur ke leye nahi atte bahir :P

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Come to me, and I'll show you a world
With purple skies and amber rain;

A world with us and no one else,
No tears, no sorrow, no pain.

A world where you will be the moon,
And the sun that lights my sky;

A world where the winds will sing to us,
When in the evening we shall sip chai.

A world where you and I will dance,
And sing to each other, songs of love;

A world in which I'll feed you cake,
And oranges too, there'll be plenty of.

A world where you will smile, and I
Will hold that moment forever;

A world where we shall stop time,
And yet, grow old togethor.

A world with fancy mirrors in our bedroom,
And a castle oh-so-grand;

A world where there will be dark alleys,
Where you'd ask me to hold your hand.

So come to me, and I'll show you a world
With purple skies and amber rain;

A world where I will love you forever,
And give you no sorrow and no pain
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The whole world seems like crashing on you....breathing gets difficult...standing at the edge looking at your life fall apart in front of you and You are just as helpless as you can ever be...things dear to you being taken away...sadness turning into fury...fury eating your own flesh...desire to burn....sadness sadness sadness....numb numb numb....tears.....desire desire fucking desire...blank...duality two persons....real....confusion....fallbacks.....people changing...expectations....failure....illusions....flashbacks...past is present....shadows covering the future....fucking want you to shut up!!!!

fears.....fucking scary fears FEARS!!!!!!

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and You can blame me for everything I have got no excuses no explanations

and I can be as invisible as you have always made me feel

I just wish nobody goes through this emotion

this emotion I had always been telling

to see everything happening right in front of your eyes

and standing there

blank eyes

.......

You may not get it

what I am trying to say

but

this feeling

this fucking feeling

once you imagine my pain

you wont be able to look into my eyes and question about my acts

TAG TIME =)

1. Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it.?
one on my arm....from the cage of my pigeons.


2. What does your phone look like?
Black


3. What is on the walls of your bedroom?
Right now its my A levels colorful datesheet aina made :)


4. What is your current desktop picture?
few fallen orange leaves

5. Do you believe in gay marriage?
nope


6. What do you want more than anything right now?
Hug aina really tight!


7. What time were you born?
1 45pm


8. Are your parents still together?
ya


9. Last person who made you cry?
Myself


10. What is you favourite perfume/cologne?
I dont have one favourite


11. What kind of hair/eye colour do you like in the opposite sex?
votever who cares...


12. What are you listening to?
linkin park-Bleed it out

13. Do you get scared of the dark?
Ya

14. Do you like pain killers?
No

15. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Votever not my question

16. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
icecream cake


17. Who was the last person you made mad?
My mother

18. Is anyone in love with you?
No not it tat sense (Thanks God no1 is :p)


I tag everyone reading it!

living two extremes
bursting into laughter yet tears fighting to escape the bonds placed on them...
How does it feels to live this way?.....

=)

Happy Birthday Begum Dost:P:P

LuuUUUUuuuuVVVVV UUUU!!!!!!



HUGS

I have lost my words
I have lost my thoughts
I have lost the control
heart sinks
pain rises
tears roll down
fears get faces
lies surround
life goes on....

Lifehouse--Blind

I was young but I wasn't naive

I watched helpless

As you turn around to leave

And still I have the pain I have to carry

A past so deep

That even you could not bury if you tried

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I would fall asleep

Only in hopes of dreaming

That everything

Would be like it was before

But nights like this

It seems are slowly fleeting

They disappear as reality is crashing the floor.

Aina =)

A hug that can make every pain go away

words that I always wanted to hear

care that makes me feel blessed

Someone whose presence makes this world a better place to live

someone who is YOU!

brightening my smile

making me feel better

healing me from all this sorrow

=)

Celine dion--Because You Loved Me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love i found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when i was weak
You were my voice when i couldn't speak
You were my eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything i am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand i could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and i stood tall
I had your love i had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe i don't know that much
But i know this much is true
I was blessed because i was loved by you

You were my strength when i was weak
You were my voice when i couldn't speak

You were my eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything i am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when i was weak
You were my voice when i couldn't speak
You were my eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything i am
Because you loved me

I'm everything i am
Because you loved me

I wish life was just one cup of coffee
dark
bitter
scorching
I could just drink it in one big sip and end it immediately!

last day while talking to aina she told me this quote

......I dont blame you for anything and I forgive you for everything.......

and I could feel these words are for me I dont have to blame you for anything.

You were right too and I was hurt too.... it wasnt your fault ...nobodys fault.

I understand your position ,you might had your reasons and I had mine....

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though the wreckage and the loss is beyond any redemption

but still its ok...with time you learn to live with the scars and wounds of soul...

Your love will be your defeat
My hatred will be my power
One day you will find yourself drenched,
In the acid rain's shower
The rain of lies
The rain of my unheard cries
Each droplet will be screaming my words
One day you will realise
My hatred for myself will speak against you
There will be no blames
Yet there will be a bitter realisation
Just mere realisation......