Best wishes for the coming year

not a glossy post in respect of muharram.

Hey people I really need help I have to buy the new phone I am very confused between w902 and n85 please help me choose between them :S I like both of em :S heeelp!

hey God I am tired of all this
i think you gotta review my luck and fix all this for me..
look down I need some help here it's too much for me to take.

Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first
Sometimes the first thing you want never comes
But I know that waiting is all you can do
Sometimes
aqualung-strange and beautiful

hey people I will be away for a week in hostel without any net facilities..thanks to our great great jamiat rule khyr do pray for my next sub-stage on 22nd december after which I am coming back for winter vacations. till then tata bye bye hehe

you

-cary brothers-the glass parade

Just a voice inside your head

Whispering all the hope is dead

All the time you had to prove

That no one really loves you



I found you in a reflection

You didn't want me to see

I will give you all i have

Just look up, break down and believe



This is a glass parade

A fragile state

And i am not trying to break

And the stars are shining

The moon is right

And i would kill to be with you tonight



Wish you told me all the truth

So afraid to face an absolute

All the fights you had to lose

All the fear was put upon you



I found you when you were broken

Too many cracks of deceit

I will give you all i have

Just look up, break down and believe



This is the feeling, falling

So much i want to say

Show me the same emotion

Show me what's at stake

How much can you take

When you realise your fate?



Hold me now as the car lights fade

And we are dancing in the glass parade



It's just a voice inside your head





your smile is so pure just by looking at it my soul gets washed and renewed... :) I wonder what I would have been without..maybe a hollow being without any soul...you make life run through my being :) it's you who makes me alive...

My treasure :D :D
love you moti!!

I was tagged by seher's shenanigans

Rules: IT'S HARDER THAN IT LOOKS!

TAG 10 PEOPLE INCLUDING THE ONE THAT SENT THIS TO YOU.

- USE THE 1ST LETTER OF YOUR NAME TO ANSWER EACH OF THE FOLLOWING QUESTIONS.
- THEY HAVE TO BE REAL PLACES, NAMES,THINGS. NOTHING MADE UP!
- TRY TO USE DIFFERENT ANSWERS IF THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU HAD THE SAME 1ST INITIAL.
- YOU CAN'T USE YOUR NAME FOR THE BOY/GIRL NAME QUESTION.

- SCATTERGORIES

1. What is your name: Aliza

2. A 4 Letter word: ages

3. A Boys Name: Ali

4. A Girls Name: Aina

5. An Occupation: Artist

6. A Color: Azure

7. Something you wear: anklet

8. A Beverage: apple juice

9. A Food: Aloo ke parathe

10. Something found in the bathroom: acne soup

11. A place: Ahmadabad

12. A Reason for being late: Accident

13. Something you shout:Aqsaaaaa ( my maid's name)

The hardest part is finding 10 people that will play with you!!!
I tag
Aina
Timsal
Duffer
hfm
Ayaz
Sawj
siras
Walking away
Ilu you can do it too!
Raaji

seher you have already done it hehe :)

I want to walk with you on this wet road in the peaceful silence..

I am missing two important people in my life and missing many other things...

through the rain I see the car lights pass by
flashes
flashes of time
How everything changed
days went by
weeks ended
months began
years gone
time to come
everything changes
except the desire
desire of not to change

I am shedding of my old skin.

winter rains in multan are a rare scene!

Sometimes when everything is turning out to be dust and gravel

there is this one person who always shines like a star in my life
love you!

good luck joes-frozen


Far away,
What was deemed to never change,
Found a rift,
Made a void at its own pace.

In a blindside ambush fight,
It all fell
At the hands
Of a mind game.

And i don't mind,
And i don't mind
To look inside your thoughts..

And i don't mind,
And i don't mind,
But i can't find my way in…

Frozen in time,
And only you and i can see the
Warning signs
Through thousands upon
Thousands of honest lines,
Dry your eyes…

Black and white's
Not always simple
As it seems.
But i will try
To make it easy
On you.

And i will, and i will,
And i will set you free

han now for the complete details! first of all I am terribly sick and with all the huge number of pills and coughing like a dog I seriously look like a TB patient :P
talking about college it is the worst place ever to exist on this world! very vulgar fooling crappy narrow minded conservative teachers awful seniors! in short this place is more like hell for me!
the teachers here think the girl wearing a veil is very pak and muslim and while who isn't is some prostitute and should be punished in every way possible! But I am dheet for them I will never change my personality if they think I am a prostitute let them think that way I give a fucking damn about your shallow minds!

The hold of jamiat-islami is so much here! thanks GoD I am in Iqbal Hall in Faisal Hall the jamiat girls don't allow tv and anybody who is listening to music they go to their room and fight over it and call them kafir! We had a so-called tiny little primary class standard welcome "party"(shame to call it a party) in hostel. I didn't go but what I heard made me do shukar that I didn't go.There was no music no entertainment the jamiat ppl gave DARSSS!!! and that's all this was the welcome thng!

every single girl here is crying and complaining about it. In college the favouritism rules! A girl daughter of a professor working at qmc gets the highest marks teachers take her viva for 30 mins and wehereas mine not even 10 minutes my demonstrator has no intention to pass me! She asked me the questions she hadn't asked anybody all the twisted ones and tried to confuse me a lot asking me at my every answer " are you sure? really?" I hate her.

The whole anatomy department is the department of mentally sick people! the maam calls us "loofar" "awaara" "third-class girls" and the college thinks that this maam has got some kind of mental problem cuz she calls this type of things to our seniors final year girls too!. and khud she is wearing almost sleeveless stuff no dupatta frills and weird clothes!
she is the maam of girls batch but she goes to help the boys batch and does dissection herself for them but to us she gives the order "skin remove krlo" "fat nikal dou" "aapko tou kuch nahi ata" I am like hum tou apne ghar se seekh ke ate hai na dissection!! I hate this maam too!!

Biochem and physio departments are much better the teachers there don't pass fail you on the basis of your links and appearance!

and the computer lab at our college is always locked!

I think that's enought to explain the hell shitty place I am living in!

I will never advice anybody to ever go qmc this place sucks!!

I am back people for the eid holidays! I will do a detailed post tomorrow
the few updates are that I am very sick
I cleared my sub-stage with good marks! viva tha
We did dissection and now the bodies have fungus and things are very disgusting with yellow liquid flowing out of the bodies and green fungus
anatomy department paglo ka department hai teachers there are clinically insane!
and environment of qmc sucks!!

Leigh Nash-Along the wall

There is a door, where i am standing
Without a key, without a clue
Without you, i am wondering...
Wondering about you.

It's a cold cold night
Are you gonna call me
Tell me about.. how i go on and on.. about you
Being how it used to be.
How it's all about me.

Ooohh i would like to know
Who is the wounded one
Which one will make the move
Which one is willing to lose

I am back for the weekend! The college is going ok just making me regret again and again why I chose medicine. I have my first sub-stage of anatomy on 29th and the demonstrators who are teaching us suck very much!!!! so I am home to study all the crappy scapula axilla brachial plexus clavicle pectoral girdle spinal cranial nerves from my father. They have given too much syllabus for the first sub-stage. It is really hard to memorise all the muscle attachments and everything crappy like that.

Some very vulgar fooling was done about which I complained to the administration and thus guards are appointed now in every corridor! and we are being fooled in episodes and it will continue for a month or more than that because when fourth year got free from exams they fooled us when third year will get free in a week then they will fool us and 2nd year coming on 1st december :P.

Life has gotten really busy 8am-2:30pm we study CONTINUOUSLY without and break to eat or drink and back at the hostel there is so much to study!

the guys here they are getting fooled TOO MUCH lol
khyr bus yehi hain updates I think.


So far away from where you are
I'm standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me

Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here
lifehouse-from where you are

I really miss you timsal

lol I love this site asma they are so damn cute thanks for telling me



My first day went quite fine without any ragging the teachers are so strict here they don't allow it. Got my room almost set with carpets it will get completed on Monday. Nothing special really happened to be shared. Just that studies here seem to be quite tough! and we had to give our attendance 10 times because they had nothing else to keep us occupied and ya the boys aren't allowed to wear joggers jeans and t-shirts with stuff written on it. One of them got beztified toolol and we girls are not allowed to wear open shoes! Bus these were the weird stuff.

hahaha this suits my situation I got my room yesterday for time being it stinks like anything but we will work on it and get it fixed! I am lucky I got the demonstrator room in the hostel otherwise the other student rooms are even worse,that's what we have got in our government colleges! and with the rent of 50Rs per month I shouldn't be expecting more than this
I am going on saturday. My pc will be at home for a week until I get a computer table that fits in my miniature room and I can't risk taking the laptop because of the stealing scene there. And yes the seniors are well prepared for our fooling yesterday two girls tried to trap me and my friend while we were looking at the rooms but thanks to the supervisor with us they left us! but bakre ki maa kab tak khair manae gi lol phasna tou hai! I hope it's good and funny I will come and share it here what happened with me. Last year my friend's sister and their classfellows made a newcomer wear socks on his ears and run round and round in the ground doing *mae mae mae mae* and with the other guy they asked him to shout and run all around in the university calling * meri paro meri paro* lols
and yes I am getting scholarshipI will buy my cell with it hehe
any tips for living in hostel are most welcome! I really need them!

I have got nothing to post about so this zodiac thing inspired by siras


You can find about your star here--zodiac enjoy

Sometimes when you stop expecting it starts getting easier for your own self.It hurts lesser now. I can feel that I am starting to breathe again.

I want a new cell phone

anyone of thesesony ericsson w980

N85




sony ericsson w902
anybody interesting in gifting me lol

Soon I am going to get one waitng for abu to get free and I attend my first class at uni then I am going to get it
It's going to my bday gift+AS level result+A level result+ entry test result

home sweet home :)

tagged by mubi.
THE RULES:

The McCains own 13 cars, eight homes and have access to a corporate jet. If you were as insanely rich as them, where would your eight homes be and why?

The only rule is: The homes must be within the borders of the country you live in, so as to utterly emulate the McCains.

When you’re done, tag 8 people, so that they may join in the self-indulgence, forgetting about the crappy property market and the equivalent of The End of Pompeii on Wall-Street. You could spend your time hammering your doors and windows shut in preparation for the Apocalypse, but this meme is so much more fun!

I can't think of 8 places lets see how many I can come up with

1st.I want two houses in the northern areas of pakistan, one near kashmir area and the second a little lower than that can be at murree or nathiagali.

2nd. I want a house near the desert too an area like this..

3rd.There is a hill near the hanna lake in quetta of shia community it is quite beautiful I want a home there. I couldn't get the picture of the hill but here is the picture of that lake.

4th. Of course near the sea side is a must :)

a view maybe like this only if our sea side is that clean :p

5th. a house on any lake in pakistan.

6th. a modern house in any defence area :p lahore maybe I think it's safer.

7th. A small comfortable home in a village too any beautiful village would be great. :)

8th. And finally yes a house in bhawalpur because I have to study there :p lol

yay I actually came up with 8 place. :D

I am not tagging anyone :P anybody who reads this tag is welcome to do it hehe *rola muka* :P

I hope ilu now your complain about my recent sketches is ended with this sketch :P

TAGGED

The Rules are:
[copied and pasted!]

~ Link to the Blogger who tagged you.
~ In your blog, post The Rules and...
~ Six quirky but unspectacular factoids about yourself
~ Tag six other bloggers by linking to them
~ Go to each person's blog, and leave a comment that lets them know they've been tagged.
My own rule~ Let me know you've done this tagged post too!

I am being tagged by hfm

1st.I have this strong urges while I am at some very formal place like in front of principal or any senior personality to shout and do something totally rebellious like jumping asking them a very stupid question or just running away real fast while we are in the middle of conversation. :$

2nd.Again an urge--while we are traveling in car I have this desire to open the door of running car and jump out of it :P

3rd.Before going to sleep all night I shake my left leg real hard it kinda helps me in my thought process.

4th.Even though I have never studied computer not even at my school( ya it was a bad low standard school) I can understand this htmls and computer progamming much better than many people.

5th.When I start sketching I have to complete that sketch on the spot.If I leave it I can never complete it NEVER!! even if try at some other day I can't even hold the pencil right for doing so.

6th.I CAN'T sing or dance in front of any person not that I have a "torture to ears" kind of voice but singing and dancing is just TOO embarrassing for me.

I tag Timsal,Aina,illusions,BoogieMonsterman,Sawj and Noor Ali

Hum ne tanhai se pocha ke milo ge kab tak

Uss ne bechaini se foran hi kaha sham ke baad


Luat at hai meri shab ki ibadat khali

Jane kis arsh par rehta hai khuda sham ke baad


Maar deta hai ujar jane ka dohra ehsas,Farz

Kash ho koi kisi se na juda sham ke baad

I dint get the chili mili I am very sad about it :'( I want the jelly!!!! :'( I dont care if it is very childish to ask :( I want chili mili!!! *bawling*

kashmakash..

I feel like it was Your way to create an escape for me and allow me the freedom to grow out of everything.
But when I think this I feel guilty.
I feel so tired and just weird I long for something I can't understand and comprehend.

So I stumble home at night
Like I've stumbled through my life
With ghosts and visions in my sight
We are always living in twilight

the weepies-living in twilight

ironic life bits

Are you ok?
yes I think I am stable..

didn't expect to get motivation from words of a stranger thanks a lot!
d gypsy! :)

"…and I wish I can tell you and make you understand that success is never an easy affair. Not always a fair decision would happen, not always it would be in your stride, not always there would be a failure to make you understand that things shouldn’t be like that!

But there would be chances and there would be hopes, there would be reasons to live on and there would be people to love.

When "supermen" are a distant dream, being a "human" is all it takes! "

great words beautiful acts
fake smiles
pretentious masks
smothering facades
sand slipping through your hands
broken..

I am a paranoid lunatic emotional bitch.

I wish I die or I never existed.

I had enough of this life.
Ya Ya life a gift blah blah
I don't have the
strength
motivation
urge
desire
reason to move on and just live.



it hurts to breathe
I feel very alone

I am not your star or angel.

I feel like shutting down this blog for a while or maybe for a longer time. Don't know really I might
whatever.

dodging looks.
trickles.

deep dark pit.
a yellow leaf falling down.
a tear rolls down

Cute cat

isn't she so damn cute :D

urrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhh!!!
I kept searching for ways to type in urdu but cudnt :@
urgghh kill this net :"@

blink.

blink.
tick toc.

days weeks words cuts

your ruling habits
my seething anger

ok fine you rule the world but I am telling you I am not a part of that world

my time will come soon
He has a better plan for me than you think
lies
red white lies
hate you


ps.all the commentors I DON'T want any lecture over happiness!

found it! :P

I was longing to find my long lost blog of which I had forgotten the url :$ :P
at last I found it and it was funny yet painful reading it..well I have found this old post of mine which I would like to share
I don't know who wrote it

aKhlaaq na bartenge mudaawaa na karenge
ab hAm kisi shaKhs ki paravaah na karenge
kuch log kaii lafz galat bol rahe hain
isalaah magar ham bhi ab isalaah na karenge
kam-goii k ek vasf-e-himaaqat hai bahar toU
kam-goii ko apanaayenge chahakaa na karenge
ab sahal pasandi ko banaayenge vatiiraa
taa der kisi baab meIn sochaa na karenge
Gussaa bhi hai tahaziib-e-ta'lluq ka talabgaar
ham chhup hain bahre baiYhe hain Gussaa na karenge
kal raat bahut ghuur kiyaa hai so ham
tay kar ke uthe hain k tamannaa na karenge

I am sad. Never mind.
Magrib azaan always fills me with sadness.
grainy grey picture of life
dont bother
blah.

hope

From the blog My life as a Muslim

this is for you! I think you will get what I wanted to say to you read it calmly understanding the words!

Your words, your dreams, and your thoughts have the

power to create conditions in your life

What you speak about, you can bring about.

If you keep saying you can’t stand your job,

you might lose your job.

If you keep saying you can’t stand your body,

your body can become sick.

If you keep saying you can’t stand your car,

your car could be stolen or just stop operating.

If you keep saying you’re always broke, guess what?

You’ll always be broke.

If you keep saying you can’t trust a man or trust a woman,

you will always find someone in your life to hurt and betray you.

If you keep saying you can’t find a job,

you will remain unemployed.

If you keep saying you can’t find someone

to love you or believe in you,

our very thoughts will attract more

experiences to confirm your beliefs.

Turn your thoughts and conversations around to be more positive

and power packed with faith, hope, love and action

Don’t be afraid to believe that you can

have what you want and deserve.

Watch your ‘Thoughts,’

they become words;

Watch your ‘Words,’

they become actions;

Watch your ‘Actions,’

they become habits;

Watch your ‘Habits,’

they become character;

Watch your ‘Character’,

for it becomes your ‘Destiny’

So…….To prevent any obstacles…….

GET OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY!

Enjoy every minute you live!!

:)

the little things you do they give my happy tears
the way you smile at me makes me feel like on cloud no.9
randomly when you call me lizu it feels like I am princess of this world
you rock my world :)

I will give up on you only when life will give up on me!

aab tak tou na kundan hue na rakh hue
hum apni aag mein har roz jal ke dekhte hain
-Farz

Words of Marina


maybe you can someday understand it..
Thinking of you so much borders on 'not acceptable'.
I dreamt of you last night.
I woke up to see your name flash up on my cellphone and I smiled.
There is too much pain in you for me to let it go by unnoticed. If I could look into your eyes, I would see the possibility of the warmth and innocence you would have embodied, if you hadn't been hurt like this. If I could watch you, I would see buried flashes of it when you speak to the elderly, hold babies, feel the pain of the ill.
Since you're not here, I'll search for you in the faces of people I see.
True eyes and glorious smile.
If I promise you not to hurt you, you won't believe it and I might not be able to keep it. But I can promise you I'll try my damned hardest.
Never forget you're beautiful. Not a failure, not what people say you are, not what you see in the mirror. Just plain ol' beautiful. Inside and out, through and through.

Tag-Top most gratifications

I was tagged by exquisite :)


1st-my cellphone I am kind of person who msgs all day and can't sleep properly if my cell is not right near my pillow..though I am changing it but for right now k790i is my life :P




2nd-my sketch ka saman :)




3rd-my cats they are like my family from top left-shonu,bilo rani aka brownie, monu and bibal :)


ps.Aina as you might argue why I dint mention you so the reason is you come above all of them and I can't compare you with cats or cell phone :P

I tag timsal and aina :)